Grover Ponders

I'm having a restless night and felt the urge to jot down some of what was going through my mind. For a change, this is a non-technical post. I tried to be brief, but well, here:

I am sitting here restless
feeling the need to be doing something,
lacking the focus to determine what.

Thoughts of reflection flowing through my mind
As I try to find something to distract me
long enough to fall asleep again.

Regrets of the past and present,
wondering if the right choices were made,
where I would be if another path were followed.

Lost or abandoned loves,
what could have been,
compared to the now, and what is.

Ignored tasks, or unfavored courses
would these have lead to a better now,
or a more promising future?

Have I done all I can for my friends and family,
or have I shut myself away for too long
and lost their favor?

How best to love my daughter,
and how have I failed?
What can I do different and better for her?

These whispers run through my mind,
leading me to depression and dispair,
nightly.

The battle continues,
to distract me from these thoughts
and keep me balanced.

Sometimes I think too much.